Nuit Et Jour

If some days I shone like an emerald,today I am definitely just a stone.
An ugly listless one.

I think my lil bro is irritatingly adorable sometimes.

An hour ago,he was rude to my dad again.
Although I understand he started with a right intention but the tone was wrong.

Again I threatened with my infamous threats.
And he came to pay his internet debt and asked me when I am free for dinner.

=/

And I talked to him and counselled him.
(As if he will rem' for life.)


Saturday was extremely short.
Guess it is pretty much ruined last night.

I wouldnt wanna rule whose fault it is.

But come to know 4 moods of mine at least.

1)An extremely chirpy,smart and witty me.
2)A very blur,silly,dophey me.
3)A grown up me that's in touch with my own world and then shut the rest out.
4)A tantrumatic baby.(usually when I am very tired)

Obviously you would preferred the first 2.

But I am all of the above.

My home is my only solace.
My comfort zone.
My rest ground.
My altar of rejuvenation.

Of coz it is nicer to have my family with me.
But in my home,I am not scare to be alone too.
For I am much used to solitude,that's grown in me inside.

Why?
You think I chose that...on purpose?
To act cool,mystifying and then seek pity?

Everyone is born to seek and finish his/her mission in life.
We are all here for a reason,aren't we?

One path...
We keep exploring.

We may fall.
We may get injured.
We may get trapped.
We may get tired.
We may feel lonely.
We may feel hopeless.

But...
We just keep going.

Sometimes we find treasures.
Sometimes we may lost what should belonged to us.
Sometimes we meet new people whom we thought are friends.
Sometimes they are really friends and then maybe foes.
Sometimes we receive aid.
Sometimes we are just stabbed deeper.

Yet...
We shouldn't give up.

I was reading what I blogged a year back.
Surprisingly it took a year and even less for things in my life to change.

Not alot change.
Not that I've changed alot.

I admitted from the very first ground that that was how I felt.
And it is still how I feel.

I guess I've been like this since young.

Guess that is me.

But I am changed.

For better or worse,I dare not pass the sentence.

All I think is that I am more definitely stronger than before.

The sky had fell on me many times and I believe it has more to come.

I just hope...

You will stay happy.

You...

Only I know who are the yous.

Nuit Et Jour.

I am always praying for your(s) happiness.

Bonnuit.
Bonjour.

Et...

Bonnuit.